As this year comes to an end, we all start to feel the pressure of reflecting on the goals we had in mind at the start of the year; only to find that we failed to accomplish most of them. It’s easy to get lost in thought and freak out because we didn’t lose the weight we wanted, we didn’t travel as much as we desired, we never signed up for that paint class or dance class or we didn’t improve our social interactions.
I’m guilty of falling down that rabbit hole frequently every year. Recently, I had a bad anxiety episode for three days straight so, instead of giving in, I decided to highlight the accomplishments of this year. No matter how simple of an accomplishment it might seem, it’s worth acknowledging it.
Checking out the initial plans and how much they got accomplished:
– Travel more: I want to say I kind of did manage to travel and celebrate with my best friend our years of friendship in a cruise to the Bahamas and it meant a lot to me.
– Improve mental health: I accepted I needed help and started therapy. This was the year I started to warm up and start the process of healing and moving forward.
– Spend quality time with loved ones: I got to travel home and spend time with the family on my dad’s birthday and, even though it was only 48 hours, it was worth it.
Celebrating small victories:
– Stick to plans: I was able to actually make plans with friends and go on more outings in my days off, which meant getting out of the house and making it on time.
– Recognize how far I’ve come: I came to terms with how bad I was doing for over four years and how it affected me, which helped me start the healing process.
– Self-acceptance: I was able to start changing the way I see myself and work on my self-esteem. Yes, it has been a roller coaster, but, I’ve gotten more comfortable with myself in certain ways.
– Challenge myself: I was able to get out of my comfort zone and gave someone the chance to take me out on a date. This was a big change of mindset for me since I’ve never felt I was someone people will want to date.
– Go with the flow: I remembered how much I liked being free of worries and go with the flow of things, therefore allowing myself to go with what life brought me.
– Dared to try new things: As nervous and anxious as I get, I was willing to try new things instead of watching others from the sidelines.
On New Year’s Eve my plans are to celebrate what a wonderful and eventful year it was; to remember how much I have grown despite feeling my worst and needing a break before continuing. I never stayed down too long and slowly got myself back up. I’m thankful for all the chances and memories.
This new year I’m ready for more lessons, more memories and more life!