It has been quite busy these past few weeks. Busy all the time! Non-stop. Today, I was finally able to keep my day off and not run to pick up extra hours. I slept in, relaxed in bed and then looked at my phone. After less than 10 seconds, I saw an article about an actress I really like and admire: Evan Rachel Wood. I clicked on the article and was immediately drawn to it.Read More
It was 3 a.m. and my thoughts wouldn’t let me sleep. I tossed and turned, and nothing but my thoughts happened. At the time I didn’t know what was wrong so I got up and took my journal and a pen. And then, as I started writing, I realized I’m going down the black hole. Again.
January 13, 2019.
I haven’t had a positive thought in my mind for so long.
I finally got a new job. After months of applying to different jobs and getting “Thanks, but no thanks” emails. After practicing in front of a mirror how to introduce myself a hundred times, and how to smile a hundred more times. Not to mention preparing myself for all the stereotypical questions and uncomfortable moments knowing that most of the answers I’m giving are all staged. They’re the result of multiple drafts that end up being exaggerated truths. *coughwhosaidthatcough*
However, sometimes despite the trouble I get the job and it’s time to celebrate!
Self-acceptance is a roller coaster and, when we’re in the pit of despair, it’s just so hard to accept who we are. Whenever we’re there the brain engages in self-loathing and, after it’s done, we feel like a hurricane just passed by and now we have to pick up the mess, again.
It’s just not that simple.Read More
My eyes opened after only four hours of rest. And the thing is, when insomnia is constantly present in your life, there’s no going back to sleep. I remember waking up in the middle of the night a few times, glancing around and realizing that I still have more time to rest. It’s becoming a routine where at first the body feels too tired to even move, so I stay in bed hoping for sleep to come back, one hour later I feel the same, if not worse, and I still haven’t been able to sleep. I’m left with no other option but to get up and start the day with whatever energy I’ve accumulated.Read More