When My Thoughts Don’t Let Me Sleep

It was 3 a.m. and my thoughts wouldn’t let me sleep. I tossed and turned, and nothing but my thoughts happened. At the time I didn’t know what was wrong so I got up and took my journal and a pen. And then, as I started writing, I realized I’m going down the black hole. Again.

January 13, 2019.
3:01 a.m.

I haven’t had a positive thought in my mind for so long.

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Why Changing Jobs Keeps Me Sane

I finally got a new job. After months of applying to different jobs and getting “Thanks, but no thanks” emails. After practicing in front of a mirror how to introduce myself a hundred times, and how to smile a hundred more times. Not to mention preparing myself for all the stereotypical questions and uncomfortable moments knowing that most of the answers I’m giving are all staged. They’re the result of multiple drafts that end up being exaggerated truths. *coughwhosaidthatcough*
However, sometimes despite the trouble I get the job and it’s time to celebrate!

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Self-Loathing When You’re Depressed

Self-acceptance is a roller coaster and, when we’re in the pit of despair, it’s just so hard to accept who we are. Whenever we’re there the brain engages in self-loathing and, after it’s done, we feel like a hurricane just passed by and now we have to pick up the mess, again.

It’s just not that simple.

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