Into the Unknown…

Oh what a time to be alive! This stay-at-home order, the fear of what is happening and what the next normalcy will look like once we make it through the hardest times is crazy. Being an ambivert myself, I didn’t know how much of it would affect me but once I started spending all of my time inside with no job (since I was in the middle of changing jobs when all this started); and then my anxiety and depression started to take over, no doubt being inside became quite the challenge.

I normally go outside to my favorite places to just be outside and distracted, even if I don’t even talk to one single human because I love the freedom of being outside: the space, the ability to breathe and stretch and not feel confined! 

Ready for night yoga

I suddenly found myself with so much time in my hands, but the depression left me with no strength to do any of it. I started doing yoga, sewing, reading, organizing what was still around from when we moved. I sewed face masks for family and friends, to cope with the feeling of hopelessness.

But one day I woke up with only enough energy to make coffee. It was the only thing I wanted to do that still made sense in my brain. The rest of the week flew by and I literally did nothing.

These are times that fear is constantly present wherever we go, and as someone with a mental illness these are even scarier times. I was scared I couldn’t talk to my therapist but managed to get one virtual visit with her which helped me gain some perspective and gave me some peace of mind. That reminder from an external person that knows all the million things I’ve been through but still believes in me and that I can make it through these times. Even with the extra battle that my brain gives me in the middle of the chaos.

Currently no one has the answer of how we will make it through but I’m happy to say I’m trying my best to take it day by day. Literally one day at a time is how I’m able to maintain my sanity stable enough to make it to the next one!

I just needed to say it somewhere as a reminder that even if I feel like the ship is sinking, we still know how to swim ashore. As long as we are being safe and don’t give up we will make it through. Now to continue the journey into the unknown of the rest of 2020.

Stay healthy, pineapple!

Raising from the Dead

Hello pineapples!

I know, it’s been a long time since we don’t post anything.

We died for a moment, but we’re back and ready to improve some more. 😉

A lot has happened during these past few months in terms of jobs, relationships, mental health, and life-changing decisions. While there are different reasons we stopped blogging, there’s one in specific that affected us the most.

The most important reason being our own mental health. When we first started this blog we wanted a place where we could share unconventional coping skills, while at the same time developing a new perspective about mental health.

But we quickly found out, that the more we focused on ways to help ourselves, and others, the more aware we were of the condition of our minds. The more ups and downs we had on our daily lives. So we stopped for a moment because…

….being able to help others can only be successful once you’ve helped yourself.

It was like the roller coaster stalled at the bottom for what it felt like an eternity and then it slowly went up. We were left hanging there at the top…waiting for the drop.

The drop happened faster for Astrid, less intense than usual.

However, I’m still there. Hanging with my arms up, feeling the adrenaline run through my body. A mix of fear and excitement. I thought going back to writing about mental health could potentially jeopardize my own mental health.

Nevertheless, here I am. Willing to find out what happens when it drops.

We will pick up our blog one more time, although it’ll be full of our own experiences rather than self-help articles, there’s a lot of exciting stuff coming up in our lives and we’d like a place to log that into.

Whether someone reads this or not, it’ll be a journal of self-improvement and dreams. Of thoughts and fears.

A place for us to look back and say “Damn we’ve come a long way.”

Stay tuned. pineapples! ❤

Ted Talks for When You’re Feeling Down

Whether you enjoy Ted talks, or they bore you, there’s no denying that some of them are uplifting and gives us a new perspective about life.

I’ve chosen these talks because of their unique views and ability to grasp your attention from the first few seconds.

Listen to these amazing people that have found the strength to face their challenges.

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What I Do When Facing Indecision

Indecision is one of the most annoying depression symptoms. Feeling unable to decide whether or not to go to work, or what clothes should I wear, or what to study. Granted, we all face indecision probably daily in our lives, but when depression is constantly on our shoulders the task of making a decision is sometimes unbearable. The simplest decision could make us unresponsive, unable to move because we’re just so afraid of the consequences we might face. And when this is accompanied by anxiety, it’s a matter of which decision would lead me to the less painful scenario.

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Opening Up About Mental Illness:”A New Me”

It has been quite busy these past few weeks. Busy all the time! Non-stop. Today, I was finally able to keep my day off and not run to pick up extra hours. I slept in, relaxed in bed and then looked at my phone. After less than 10 seconds, I saw an article about an actress I really like and admire: Evan Rachel Wood. I clicked on the article and was immediately drawn to it.

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